Secrets, Arcs, and Tone

So I’m writing this sitting at Metatopia, a game design convention in New Jersey. I see friends and interesting people everywhere, and I have a semi-packed schedule exploring new games and helping designers bring their works to life. I also recently played the game Event Horizon: Summit the previous weekend, and have the game Scapegoat […]

Finding a Home

It’s been an interesting few weeks. I’ve gotten brought into a strange (but good!) tech world at Automattic, and had some alone time to feel out parts of myself. I’ve talked a lot here about community, spaces, and loneliness. These feel like aspects of a fundamental void in my life, and one that is shared […]

Mental Health Awareness Day

CW: Depression, self harm thoughts, institutionalization, trauma I suffer from severe chronic depression. It’s something I’ve had since early childhood, and I struggle with to this day and probably will till the day I die. In childhood I had some really bad episodes, and have been institutionalized twice, the first time for at least a […]

Living / Surviving

Earlier this month, I lost my job. I’m not going to go into what happened, but it’s been a very eye-opening experience. I’ve normally left companies entirely of my own volition before, and that wasn’t the case this time. But I’m not really here to talk about that, I want to explore some of my […]

Hopes and Dreams

Virgo season is upon us, and with it my mind has turned to what could be. I’ve been talking to friends about hopes and what I want for the future. The future is an interesting topic. We don’t really have one, not really. Or rather, we have something, but it’s shrouded in fears and confusion. […]

Didn’t Mean It

“Hey, I hope you know I didn’t mean it.” Well gee, thanks. I’m tired. Tired of hearing the same refrain when people screw up. Tired of having to reassure people that no, of course it’s okay, no I’m fine. “Look, he’s not familiar with this stuff, he’s not a bad guy.” Are they ever? One […]

Femme Glamour

I’m currently reading the book Becoming Dangerous, an anthology about witchcraft and femmes. There’s a few entries there exploring the intersection of femme aesthetic and magick1, whether the armour of lipstick or the power of color. This resonates a lot with me. I previously discussed a bit about how I feel about my femme identity, […]


I feel like I have a lot of responsibilities nowadays. Rather, I feel like I have new responsibilities. I’ve always had to deal with work, taking care of my cat, my body (hydrate or diedrate!). But nowadays, I have more going on. Sure, there’s the element of representation; I’m trans, and I need to think […]


Hey there! I’m going to keep this short, as I’ve been dealing with a lot of things both in the world and my brain, so topics for a blog entry have been eluding me. I guess you could say this is writer’s block. Odd, really, it’s often fairly simple to write about things in my […]

Reflections on the Dreaming

This past weekend I travelled to Atlantic City to experience Changeling: Waking Dreams. The event is based on Changeling: the Dreaming by White Wolf, a game about fae beings trying to survive, trapped in human hosts in the mundane world. A confession: I’ve never played nor even read Dreaming. I’ve heard friends say many good […]