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Hopes and Dreams

Virgo season is upon us, and with it my mind has turned to what could be. I’ve been talking to friends about hopes and what I want for the future. The future is an interesting topic. We don’t really have one, not really. Or rather, we have something, but it’s shrouded in fears and confusion. […]

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Didn’t Mean It

“Hey, I hope you know I didn’t mean it.” Well gee, thanks. I’m tired. Tired of hearing the same refrain when people screw up. Tired of having to reassure people that no, of course it’s okay, no I’m fine. “Look, he’s not familiar with this stuff, he’s not a bad guy.” Are they ever? One […]

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LARP

Just a Little Lovin’

I walked with my lover, hand in hand, looking down at blue gems winking in the green grass when my tears would let me. We stopped, and I heard Death say, “Now it is time to gather flowers for your departed. You will need them.” This past week I spent time at a LARP called […]

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Musings

Femme Glamour

I’m currently reading the book Becoming Dangerous, an anthology about witchcraft and femmes. There’s a few entries there exploring the intersection of femme aesthetic and magick1, whether the armour of lipstick or the power of color. This resonates a lot with me. I previously discussed a bit about how I feel about my femme identity, […]

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Poems Transness

Ode to the Person Staring

When you look,What do you see?Do you think I’m cute,Or strange,Or intimidating?Should I consider myselfFortunateThat you don’t speak?Am I a thingTo fear?To possess?To hurt?To love? I have seen youIn all countriesAll bodiesWearing so many facesThat you all seem the same Eyes without wordsWithout meaningExcept those I hearIn my mind’s eye

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LARP

Stories in Silence

Okay, so visiting one of the topics I thought of before: wordless storytelling games. I’ve played a few of these with little or no speaking, and every time they leave a lasting impression on me, so I’d like to explore that a little bit. For context: when I mean a storytelling game I mean what’s […]

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Musings

Responsibility

I feel like I have a lot of responsibilities nowadays. Rather, I feel like I have new responsibilities. I’ve always had to deal with work, taking care of my cat, my body (hydrate or diedrate!). But nowadays, I have more going on. Sure, there’s the element of representation; I’m trans, and I need to think […]

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Musings

Blankness

Hey there! I’m going to keep this short, as I’ve been dealing with a lot of things both in the world and my brain, so topics for a blog entry have been eluding me. I guess you could say this is writer’s block. Odd, really, it’s often fairly simple to write about things in my […]

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Musings

Reflections on the Dreaming

This past weekend I travelled to Atlantic City to experience Changeling: Waking Dreams. The event is based on Changeling: the Dreaming by White Wolf, a game about fae beings trying to survive, trapped in human hosts in the mundane world. A confession: I’ve never played nor even read Dreaming. I’ve heard friends say many good […]

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Me

Uncomfortable Feelings

CW: Judaism negativity, childhood trauma, ancestry, organized religion, mental health, Holocaust mention So first, a disclaimer: I am speaking entirely about myself and my own feelings here. This post is not intended to reflect anyone else’s relationship with Judaism or other religions. Okay, so. Background. I grew up Orthodox Jewish, which is a very intense […]