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Me Musings Transness

Walking in New Shoes

Hi there! It’s been a while. Confession: after the last post I haven’t really had a lot of energy for writing. I just felt I didn’t have a lot to talk about, which was really a mask for my depression to pull me down. I’m not sure I’m better now, but I’m certainly a bit […]

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Musings Transness

Visibility & Empowerment

Today is Trans Day of Visibility. One year ago, I was in a bunk bed in Denmark, lonely and exhausted, and I posted something briefly to Facebook about being trans before passing out. I woke up to huge amount of support (mostly), and felt really good about myself. My exposure was empowering. Before that moment, […]

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Me Musings

Spirals and Wells

CW: Mental health, depression. I suffer from depression. It’s not a fun experience, let me assure you. I’m not really going to go into what depression is, since I assume you, random Internet person, vaguely know about it, assuming you don’t have it yourself. It’s awful. So often I find myself looking to do something […]

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Books

Books n’ Things

So I’ve mentioned a lot in the way of books. I actually have started reading a lot since I came out as queer, looking to discover more of my new heritage and history. I haven’t really come up with any major discoveries or anything, though I’ve found some really good thoughts. I’ve explored areas touching […]

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LARP Musings

Other People’s Shoes

So, I’m going to talk about something I shockingly haven’t really talked about here yet. LARP! Or immersive things! If you’re like “hey Echo y’all are cool and amazing and pretty sexy and all but I don’t know what that is!” Well… I’m going to blatantly copy someone: Live Action Roleplaying is a mix of […]

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Me Musings

A Thousand Faces

Recently, I’ve been feeling my identity become more fluid. Just to be clear, I’m genderqueer and non-binary, not moving towards any binary identities. However, in thinking about how to explain my gender I’ve started to figure out that it wildly varies within the vast universe of “other”. Another thing I’ve been pondering is how to […]

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Me

Fabulous and Femme

I identify as a femme. It’s perhaps a strange thing to identify as, given I’m neither a woman nor a lesbian (and yes, one doesn’t require the other). I’m not going to talk about what femme is. That’s been covered by many other people, far more knowledgeable than I. I’ll put some resources at the […]

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Me Musings

Fine.

Fine is the suckiest wordit never tells the truth Andrea Gibson, Panic Button Collector When I was a depressed teenager, my mom always asked how my day was. “Fine,” I’d say. It was never fine. And it still isn’t. I’m never just good, or okay, or alright. This is not because I can’t be, but […]

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Books Musings

Death and Literature

I’m surrounded by ghosts. It feels a bit hyperbolic, but also it’s been on my mind lately. I’ve been reading A Gentrification of the Mind by Sarah Schulman, and it’s been hitting hard. I’m only a generation or two after the trauma of the 1980s, and as I learn more about my city’s queer past […]

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Musings

The Queer and the City

I was reading Confessions of the Fox by Jordy Rosenberg recently, and a passage stuck out to me: This particular relation between the queer/trans body and the city is strangely resonant […] We, the emotionally starved; we, who have been thrown from the void, who have turned to the city when there was nowhere else. […]